The Unknown

It is absolutely good to be back in business, the feeling is awesome :) I have managed to relax a bit, be with my family and friends, thought about my next steps and so on. I have to admit, my year so far has been quite bumpy, but also refreshing. I have had time to realize that making plans is necessary at times, but absolutely pointless at other times. You know what they say "life is what happens while we're making plans" ;)

Anyhow, plans are still important. For example I cannot imagine making new year resolutions without a bit of planning. It's one thing to write down what I want from the coming year, a whole lot of other deal is to really make it happen. To see the dreams come true. No, I won't write down my own dreams here, sorry to disappoint you :) I'm only here to provoke your thoughts ;)

I remember the time lets say about 5 years ago - it was quite the same, quiet new year's eve with family, missing the loved ones, etc. Then I decided for the coming year - that's the one where I renew my relations with my good friends. Guess what?! Didn't quite happen, cause I just thought that thinking about it is enough. It wasn't. It never is! It's the action plan that will make it happen! That year I lost quite a bit. Some friends, lost touch with family, just minded my own business instead of focusing on what is important.

Then another picture - Christmas 2005, at Kivi talu (you know the place where the traditional AIESEC Tallinn Christmas party takes place), I hardly knew anyone, but I had a blast. The evening was wonderful, I felt almost like home :) I guess I knew it already there and then that I have given my finger to AIESEC, it's now up to AIESEC to take the full hand :) And it did! Step-by-step it got me into everything more and more.

January 2007, exactly one year ago - whew, I had to start thinking what's next! It was a tough call, I was sure that I won't apply for president, then I was sure that I was absolutely the only candidate and I must do it, then I started to feel that it's actually something that would really suit to be the next step in my own growth. Today I feel that I'm the luckiest person to be in this position and it took me about 9 months to realize that. The good thing is that for the first time I feel that my family has started to appreciate it. They are finally beginning to understand what it means to me, what it means for the organization, heck, what it means for them ;) To have your family support you in what you are doing - I really wish all of you to experience that - the feeling is awesome :)

What is the meaning of all this?! Well, we all give the meaning to our words and our actions ourselves. And most of the time it's just a matter of time when we are able to put it to reasonable words when we explain it to others. Once I'm able to talk in my parents' language and explain what is it exactly that I'm doing here, I'm on top of it, because then I can be sure that I really know what I'm doing and it's not something totally random.

So feel free to explore your options, think things through, act on your emotions if needed and find the best (or the next best thing if that's going to get you the best thing) available action that really helps you get to the point where you can say - it's great to be back in business, my friends and family support me on my way and the feeling, the feeling is totally awesome!